Ten

There are ten days between me and a Bachelor of Arts degree. From wearing a silly gown and a ridiculous hat. From walking across a stage, hoping I don't trip in front of everyone, receiving a book that's actually empty (the actual diploma will come in the mail later). Ten days until my apartment- my home- is packed up, stripped of decorations, knick knacks, and memories. Ten days until I drive to Indiana (at least for the summer). Ten days until I'm a college grad (I am already one-- but this time, I'm not going back. At least not for a while).

I honestly can't find words to express how this feels. I am so excited. And so scared. I have no idea what my future holds. Even in ten days, I'm not sure what I'll be doing. I am waiting back to hear about a summer job. I am hoping I get an email about an interview for a job in August. But it's all so tentative. If these things don't work out-- I have no plan. Even them working out is terrifying. It means a huge move (across an ocean and everything)...

Gah. I really don't know how to put what is going on in my mind. I guess this feeling is pretty normal. But what I wouldn't give for some clarity and stability...

Psalm 3:5-6 -- Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Another article to read...

This stuff makes me so heavy hearted... Thanks, dude, for telling it like it is. Because more parents need to hear it.

I have a couple phone interviews coming up soon- Including the first round for the EPIK program (English Programs in Korea). Pray please. :)

Okay. read this article first.


I guess I understand some people not wanting children. But this article just seems to be celebrating self-centeredness, instant gratification, and the pervading American mindset that “if this doesn’t make me happy right now, it can’t be worth it.” I just feel like some people need to grow up and to understand that yes, there will be elements in life that are unpleasant for a time, but it’s those things that make you into a stronger and better person.

Grow up.